Emotions & Prayer

Yesterday was a really bad day. It might have been a combination of different factors (little sleep, lots of projects), but even the culmination of everything I can think of doesn’t usually hit me so hard. Such is the mystery of anxiety I suppose. Through the gritted teeth and scattered tears, I still prayed. I […]

Drought

I’d been feeling off for, I don’t know, a week or three? It was a familiar patterned progression, but it didn’t diminish the discomfort or the oppressive weight of it. There was a lot going on — with family, work, and school. I’d dealt with worse, though, so what was going on? I knew before […]

In Which I Avoid Asking for Help

A few weeks ago, I was preparing to speak for a Study Week at my software engineering school. For those of you who know my word of the year, this was a commitment I made before the new year : ) I was thankful to be able to take part. But I was struggling. I’d […]

Prayer: How to Start Praying

When we are excited about starting something new, we tend to jump into the deep end. This isn’t necessarily bad — sometimes it’s good to start there! But other times jumping straight into the deep end simply overwhelms us and makes us not want to be in the water at all.

Prayer: Why is it so Hard?

I am an all or nothing person — I am 100% in or will not do it at all. This is true in pretty much every aspect of life: I’m working out 6 days a week or zero, I keep to my daily to-do list completely or don’t even look at it…you get the idea. […]

Even Amidst a Pandemic: Give Them All

Over the last few days, I’ve felt the progression of a low-grade depression. For me, it looks like growing apathy, diminishing motivation and desire to get out of bed, forgetting to do basic self-care things (like showering, brushing my teeth), and just a persistent…sadness. One that doesn’t go away with a good night’s sleep or […]

Devotional Thoughts

The past three months have been busy, and the past two weeks (somehow) even busier. Two weddings, moving to a different continent, transitioning into being a wife… Amidst this, I’ve been unlearning the idea that an (required) hour a day (in Bible study, prayer) keeps the devil away. That is, I either have a set […]

As a Father

The inability to do anything presented a need for something I hate: asking for help.

A Difficult Focus: Better Thoughts

This is one of the most sensitive topics I’ve encountered with people. People’s opinions range from calling every screen the devil, to asserting we are above being influenced and can consume anything…Most recently, I decided that moderation was fine.

When You Feel Overwhelmed (+ Helpful, Practical Advice)

The sensation of being overwhelmed is akin to drowning no matter the cause–you desperately want air but you can’t seem to find it.