The Point of Morning Worship

One number. Line. Two numbers. Line. Two numbers. I hesitated before I drew the box. I hadn’t chosen a Biblical chapter yet. Both paths felt like dead ends. Option One had lofty words about children and enemies and dominion. Option Two had a stale plot line that prevented me from getting to the good stuff. […]

Why a Relationship Won’t Fix Your Issues (But…Can)

A good friend of mine recently entered into a wonderful relationship. His random texted questions are punctuated with the same angst and is-this-okay-ness of the first few months of my relationship with the fiancé. Ah, the honeymoon phase, filled with bliss and confusion. I’ve already written about some of the lies that media tells us […]

Know Your Triggers | How to Manage Darker Days

For the longest time, I perceived no rhyme nor reason to my anxiety. It came and went us unpredictably as the wind.

But How Do I Serve God Here?

I distinctly remember the gnawing ache in my stomach as we pulled out into our daily territory. Businesses made it worse, Hispanic shops made it better, but any kind of territory brought about this reaction. Canvassing terrified me.

Why Good-byes are the Worst (but Not)

I’ve always been a messy goodbye-sayer. Dormitories where I hung my hammock, trailer homes that shook with the morning stroll, a basement bedroom next to an overly active washing machine…sure, I’m a lover of places. But of course, the pain of leaving is evoked by my torn heart strings wound around those lovely people.

Reality in Christ | How to Manage Darker Days

This is part four of a series on how I manage my anxiety. Read the introductory post here. I’ve been dragging my feet to write this post, because I don’t know how. It’s like the most important part. My friends are fans of the hypothetical. I’ve been asked the following question several times, but I’ve only recently […]

Chosen Reactions

I thought it was a waste of time. I didn’t say that with my mouth, but I said it just as clearly with my face and posture. It was a school-wide program and I was apparently the only one that hadn’t been properly initiated through a two-day-download of information. And so, with a very reluctant […]

The Real Issue

It’s easy for me to be hard on the Israelites. I mean, they’re kinda like the byword for “awful people who are terrible at serving God basically always” in Christian circles. They worked pretty hard for that status it seems, too.

God Can’t Forgive Me (Yet): When You Just Sinned

It’s too close to the time I deliberately walked away. I need passed time and forgiveness, because the latter can’t happen without the former. Right?

When You Messed Up Again

Familiar thoughts invade. Why do I always do this. I hate myself so much. Why am I such a terrible human being. I can’t pray. Anxiety makes the vicious cycle worse, but sin hurts no matter who you are. My streak of overcoming is broken. So much for following Jesus!