Prayer: Why is it so Hard?

I am an all or nothing person — I am 100% in or will not do it at all. This is true in pretty much every aspect of life: I’m working out 6 days a week or zero, I keep to my daily to-do list completely or don’t even look at it…you get the idea. […]

The ________ of Control

I’m honestly tired of reading articles and reflections about this spread of a deadly virus. I’m even tired of writing them. But here we are, me writing another. I think I’m tired of it because I’m tired of thinking about it. I’m tired of it taking up space in our hearts, robbing us of time […]

How to Live by Faith (on the hard days)

I absolutely hate romantic comedies. Actually, I hate any kind of movie or show that tries to get me to feel something. People who don’t know me very well assume it’s because of my appearance of confidence and unshakeable resolve that I find these pieces of emotional media annoying because of how emotional they are. That’s almost […]

Even Amidst a Pandemic: Give Them All

Over the last few days, I’ve felt the progression of a low-grade depression. For me, it looks like growing apathy, diminishing motivation and desire to get out of bed, forgetting to do basic self-care things (like showering, brushing my teeth), and just a persistent…sadness. One that doesn’t go away with a good night’s sleep or […]

The Faith to Walk in a Desert

Nothing can put me in a mental tailspin quite like being unproductive—specifically when I had a planned list of things to do. I’ve gotten better about the self-condemnation part, but it still makes me feel so off, so annoyed, and craving a new day so I can try again. I absolutely love feeling like I accomplished […]

In Times Like These: a Virtual Care Package

As an intensely introverted person, I love being alone. Furthermore, I’m a homebody, so I love not having anywhere to go and having plans cancelled. That said, there’s something about mandatory or “highly-recommended” staying home that sucks the enjoyment out of it. I don’t know what your situation is like right now. Maybe you’re at home […]

Lessons from White Water Rafting

Spending a week in Deep Creek, MD with the family and some friends was ridiculously refreshing. Amidst the spontaneous naps, coding practices, and obsessive reading, I was able to fit in some white water rafting. It was a blast, we had the best guide, and it gave opportunity for many lessons.

As a Father

The inability to do anything presented a need for something I hate: asking for help.

Reality in Christ | How to Manage Darker Days

This is part four of a series on how I manage my anxiety. Read the introductory post here. I’ve been dragging my feet to write this post, because I don’t know how. It’s like the most important part. My friends are fans of the hypothetical. I’ve been asked the following question several times, but I’ve only recently […]

Why You Should Keep Trying Even When You Already Failed II

“If you decide that the way you do things now are perfect and you never attempt to improve yourself again, well then yea, you’d turn into a pretty awful teacher, but I don’t suspect that happening.”