Our Worst Fears: Even Through That

See, most of my anxieties are so ridiculous, so extreme, so convoluted, that when I can finally think rationally again they completely dissipate. As soon as my mind is clear for a moment, they evaporate. It’s wonderful. However, this one line of thinking won’t go away.

‘To Your Brothers, As to You’

When the children of Israel were entering the Promised Land, the tribes of Reuben and Gad took a liking to the land on the east side of the Jordan, when God was guiding the people to the west side of it. When these two tribes approached Moses about the possibility of them staying in this […]

The Inconvenient Requests of Christ

I am an inherent and natural planner. I thrive on routines and structure; so much so, in fact, that friends who think they’re planners start to wonder if they’re actually spontaneous after spending time with me (hi MLee!). That’s how much I mess up the curve. There are definite pros: I know how to be […]

When the Devil Tells the Truth

Like a typical teenager I struggled with FOMO throughout high school: the fear of missing out. But mine was more information focused than experiential: I didn’t want to miss out on knowing anything. I wanted to know who was dating who, what official and unofficial events were happening, and what crazy things were happening in the […]

Content with Our Part of the Story

I want to be indifferent to my part in the story God is writing as long as I’m in it, as long as I’m in Him.

Prayer: Why is it so Hard?

I am an all or nothing person — I am 100% in or will not do it at all. This is true in pretty much every aspect of life: I’m working out 6 days a week or zero, I keep to my daily to-do list completely or don’t even look at it…you get the idea. […]

The ________ of Control

I’m honestly tired of reading articles and reflections about this spread of a deadly virus. I’m even tired of writing them. But here we are, me writing another. I think I’m tired of it because I’m tired of thinking about it. I’m tired of it taking up space in our hearts, robbing us of time […]

How to Live by Faith (on the hard days)

I absolutely hate romantic comedies. Actually, I hate any kind of movie or show that tries to get me to feel something. People who don’t know me very well assume it’s because of my appearance of confidence and unshakeable resolve that I find these pieces of emotional media annoying because of how emotional they are. That’s almost […]

Even Amidst a Pandemic: Give Them All

Over the last few days, I’ve felt the progression of a low-grade depression. For me, it looks like growing apathy, diminishing motivation and desire to get out of bed, forgetting to do basic self-care things (like showering, brushing my teeth), and just a persistent…sadness. One that doesn’t go away with a good night’s sleep or […]

The Faith to Walk in a Desert

Nothing can put me in a mental tailspin quite like being unproductive—specifically when I had a planned list of things to do. I’ve gotten better about the self-condemnation part, but it still makes me feel so off, so annoyed, and craving a new day so I can try again. I absolutely love feeling like I accomplished […]